I Was Smiling Internally

♕ Today's Promise: “For thus said the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel, “In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.” Isaiah 30:15

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Dear Brothers,

Thank you so much for trusting and allowing me to help you. This must be a great blessing from God indeed! It came at the appointment time, again and again. He is never late.

“For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:”

‭‭Ecclesiastes‬ ‭3:1‬ ‭ESV‬‬

So sorry for the delay replying to you but I went to a very tight battle this weekend; something that is going to be shared in a praise report prior to encouraging our Brothers in Jesus. My wife, after supporting her and my kids since March/20, when she invited me to join her again at home to help with the kids due to COVID-19, asked me to leave again as the virus spread is getting under control.

Very encouraged by your testimony when he left home again, I just smiled and agreed with her instantaneously! I could recognize that I became very scared with my reaction, for the glory of Jesus! Thank you Lord! After my decision to leave as per her request, she tried to arrange some ways to keep me at home like postponing it but at that time I was already obeying my Lord to accomplish what was shared before when it was presented to him to have a specific direction to guide me - and He gave me.

“But if the unbelieving partner separates, let it be so. In such cases the brother or sister is not enslaved. God has called you to peace.”

‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭7:15‬ ‭ESV‬‬

The most incredible thing that happened was that, yesterday, my wife’s birthday, would be very challenging for me to please her with a good gift and a kind of celebration (I was struggling with it and had already presented to Jesus prior to getting His lovely help). And, by the way, He did it again, not for our surprise, right?

“For I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, “Fear not, I am the one who helps you.””

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭41:13‬ ‭ESV‬‬

I left home on Sunday, woke up on Monday thinking how it would be and then He provided everything. I could see how embarrassed she was as the gift my Lord brought to her was outstanding and, together with her sister, as per her own request, we did a simple party for my wife. Can you imagine this? Jesus is really fantastic! I was asked to leave home; I accomplished my mission; another day came and I was blessed who hit me with love and care, guided by Jesus! Terrific!!! I could see again how God is incredible as everything happened through Him as I was not in the mood to do anything. I just asked Him that if it was necessary to do something at the moment that He could do for me as my heart would not provide it by itself. It was a real miracle. I got an indescribable Peace from Him when everything came done. Thank you Jesus!

“Husbands, love your wives, and do not be harsh with them.”

‭‭Colossians‬ ‭3:19‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“For the love of Christ controls us, because we have concluded this: that one has died for all, therefore all have died; and he died for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him who for their sake died and was raised.”

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭5:14-15‬ ‭ESV‬‬

I had all the verses from His Word coming in my head assuring that the direction was right at that point. Everything was so clear and I was smiling internally as the confidence of His act during all the time was plenty alive in my heart. I knew for sure that He was doing something and I am resting in His Peace now in order to receive the more bless it is possible as the storm was over.

“For thus said the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel, “In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.” But you were unwilling,”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭30:15‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭23:1-3‬ ‭ESV‬‬

This the second time that after returning home, she asked me to leave again. First time happened in April 2019 and the second now. I am a transformed man. Adan is dead and I am not really living but Christ does it for me. I am doing everything “by the Book” and, for instance, there is not remaining to do unless I wait for Jesus' providence itself. There were 4 years in the desert. The first 2 years traveling on the week and coming back on the weekends to spend it with family, full of repudiation. At the beginning of the 3rd year, I met RMI and started a more reliable journey of restoration; however, the travels didn’t stop (my jobs normally were enabled in cities nearby my town in the average distance of 300 km). At the end of the 3rd year, after praying for a direction, He led me to home again with a new contract. I thought it was my restoration but it was just a short rest He gave me. She asked me to leave after one month in home and came with the papers from the lawyers. After praying, I signed the papers after her (a condition that was suggested from my side to show her that it was not my wish) and let it go. For the glory of God, in the name of Jesus, she never delivered the document to the lawyer again (the paper is “resting in peace” inside a shelf of a furniture. A lot happened through 2019/2020 and COVID-19 came. She asked me to come help with children and threw me out again - this is the incredible part: I just rocked with it!!! I knew that it was all part of God’s plan. Probably she was waiting for that guy crying on her feet again... something that, thanks to Jesus, will never happen!

“Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed. If you are insulted for the name of Christ, you are blessed, because the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you.”

‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭4:12-14‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Now I am here: excited with our ministry, waiting for Daddy’s coming steps and directions, full of Grace and thanking Him for all His mercy in our lives! Thank you Jesus! You are so beautiful!! Love you!

“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭6:33‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Thank you also Erin! You are the most incredible witness from God, alive, that I ever met! 30 years past from your blessed journey and you are keeping the same love and dedication! Thanks, thanks, thanks from the deepest part of my heart!

““Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him; I will protect him, because he knows my name. When he calls me, I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will rescue him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.””

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭91:14-16‬ ‭ESV‬‬

God bless you and your whole family, in the name of Jesus! Amen!

Warm Regards,
Hitbur